On October 11th, 2010 I wrote a blog entry called Overweight & Underfed. In it, I talked about how I was unhappy with my many things in my life and I was making a commitment to changing it for the better. However, now almost a year later that has not happened. In fact my health has gotten progressively worse. One of the first things that went wrong for me was my feet. When I made a commitment to lowering my weight I joined Planet Fitness and worked out for at least 30 min 3 times a week. To work out in a gym however, you need to wear shoes, and with in 2 months my walking was so impaired from ingrown toe nails that I had to stop going. Not only did I have to stop going to the gym but my feet got so bad that I had to stop working out period. This in turn made me extremely depressed and so I ate my sorrows away going from last years 195 lbs to a rockin 210 lbs. My heart didn’t like this one bit so I started having severe issues standing, breathing, and other life-sustaining activities. Even as I was having these issues though, I was aggressively proactive about my health. I refused the VA’s normal appointment process with my health and wouldn’t stop physically annoying them until I received a referral appointment to podiatry. When I started the Fall semester at ECU I had purchased a bicycle that I used for transportation and walked around the rest of the time no matter how impaired. Since then, I have had a surgery on my feet once to permanently remove my ingrown’s and I may need to repeat it once more to the finish the job for good. As for my heart, my weight is not the issue but is just making the issue more apparent. So I am working with doctors to try to pinpoint that issue. As for my weight, that is an ongoing struggle. After my health issues caused me to stop going to school mid semester my husband committed himself to joining my diet reconstruction. Since that began around a month ago I have lost 6 lbs and my husband has lost 8 lbs. So while I still have 9 lbs to go before I’m at the weight I was when I last reported on this, I am finally moving slowly and continuously, down the scale. It it my hope that once my feet have healed from surgery completely, that I will be able to get back on track towards my goal of losing 1/2 a pound per week. If all goes well, next year at this time I’ll be 184 lbs. That’s only 4 lbs shy of the goal I had last year. My end goal is still 160 lbs. I am very committed to this. I’m even going to try to get an appointment with a nutritionist to help figure out a way for me to fulfill my psychological eating needs without compromising my body’s physical ones. This last step I think is crucial to my long-term success. That is what I am going for, I just hope body will keep me alive long enough to do so.
